CATS

I keep dreaming about cats! I previously wrote how we came to get LuLu who obviously had been someones cat in the neighborhood at one time because when we were finally able to coax her to live inside with us eventually cornered her into a carrier and toted her to the vet, she had been fixed. Anyway as I mentioned, she has taken to my woman and barely tolerates me. I think she knows I have had only a few cats in my life and their total independence and seemingly arrogance leaves a bit to be desired. Alas, I was on a kick to get another cat in the house if only to have one that adores me as much as lulu loves my lady, but I have had a recurring dream about the children’s father and he having like this huge mall like area filled with all types of cats. Hundreds of them and he has them all named and wearing cute little ID collars and they are housed by type and color. So tonight, as I lie here having fell asleep at like 8pm then waking around 10:30 from this dream in which I requested of my exhusband, “the nicest orange cat you have” to which he stated, “That would be Ellie Mae” and proceeds to open up this slider door and a bunch of orange cats come sashaying out and he announces, “There she is!”  then, I wake up. Weird… I had had the same dream a while back, like the part 1 storyline of this dream. I do not know why unless I just have to prove I can get a cat to love me! Anyway moving on, I am so perturbed at myself for not dedicating a post strictly to my beautiful Daisy girl maltese who lived to be about 13 and miss everyday. I will post on her soon. So kids seemed to love the digitized old home movies I gave them as an extra gift for Christmas this year or rather that just passed. I am so glad we had some memories of their childhood.  My relationship is going ok I think, I have been off of work for a few days and she has been working so it is nice to have a break but I start to miss her when she is out of my presence after a few hours! It is kinda  sick really, its like we are one unit! I am unsure if this perhaps might just be a lesbian thing! I have always felt like a separate individual in other relationships! She is currently laying on her side of the bed and oh and I lucked out to get someone who lays perfectly still on her back with arms crossed like “the dead” and does not snore at all. Of course I snore so loud the neighbors can hear me and alot of mornings I wake up in the spare bedroom where I have meandered off to in order to grant her a few hours of rest, or I wake to an empty other side of the bed cause she has hauled ass to the other room. Anyway, thus we are the best of companions but… OMG DO I MISS  THE THRILL OF GETTING CLOSE TO THAT PUSSY AT LEAST EVERY OTHER DAY! Where did we go wrong? I refuse to believe in that “lesbian deathbed”! Ughh, anyway its late and I gotta go back  to work after new year couple days off! I do not really want another cat… I do not want anymore animals.